Life in Seclusion

This blog has been in hibernation for such a long time. Every month since it was last updated, I always had something in mind to talk about. But the rebel in me tried to stop this "nonsense" thing I started prevailed, as if blogging was something bad. Of course not. So not! Anyway, it succeeded just that to stop me from updating this page.

Until something happened.

Since the start of this month, I have been hibernating at home because of this injury that I acquired while playing badminton. My left Achilles Tendon ruptured. It was nasty. It is nasty...still! It was like a bomb waiting to explode. I didn't even do anything acrobatic or gymnastic. It was just a simple stride reaching for the ball, and then I heard a loud popping sound! It felt like someone hit me hard from the back which pushed me to fall on the ground. I was able to stand afterwards, but my muscles can't make the foot move forward. There it goes, the tendon gave up on me.

23 days on, five visits to the hospital, three changes of the cast, one ankle support/brace, two MRI scans, one X-ray, three ortho surgeons - the prospects are not any better. I still can't step on the sore leg. The visit to the hospital today proved to be the most emotionally-draining of all. The MRI scan showed an "almost 100% fully ruptured" tendon. My leg is at a mercy of few hairline tendons that are hanging in there. Lifting the surgeon's words, "there is a 99% probability that you will need a surgery". I was devastated. I felt like I wanted to cry. First time during this whole ordeal.

So many things brewed in my mind. I might lose my job. I might not be able to sing in the concert (will write about this on another post - promise!). I miss my mom. I miss my walking days. I will need to cancel all holiday plans. I will incur additional costs. I might not still be able to walk when I go home for Christmas. I might lose my sanity. Bwahahaha! And so on.. and so forth...

I figured, this is a test of my spirit. I need to hang in there, just like the few strands of tendons/ligaments that is keeping my foot "still" attached to the rest of the leg. To the leg where it belongs...rightfully.....errr leftfully. Hahaha!

I have few days to think about before I finally meet a panel of surgeons to discuss my case and present to me my options. I need all the guidance that i can solicit. I hope I will make the right choice.

Help me O Lord!

Pathetic

Pathetic.

That's exactly how I am feeling now. Ang sakit!!!!!!!!!! Waaaaahhhhh!!!!!!!!

Why do people keep on hurting each other? Can this world just go on without hurting, violence and animosity.

Spread love everybody!

I love you all! :)

Oh, by the way, did I mention I was listening to Christmas Carols this morning? That's how pathetic....

I need someone to hug me tight....


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No day but today! - from Rent

Closure

Someone told me before that for one to be able to move on (on whatever scenario would that be), a closure is necessary. Yes, that was the word used - necessary. Of course, the conceited me will not easily give in to such "crappy" suggestion. Pardon my word but that' s how I reacted to it the first time I heard.

Not until last weekend.

Last week, for the first time in my life, I felt I needed to be somewhere else alone. Not that I have not travelled alone yet, but most of them were work trips. So I am kinda used of being a solo traveller. In other words, soloista! Hahaha, parang sa choir! Anyway, last Wednesday, I felt the need for one and quickly went to the Budget Airlines Websites from my list of FAVORITES on my ever-friendly Internet Explorer. I wanted to go to a place I have never been (and there's still a lot of them out there) at the cheapest cost. To cut the story short, I booked a roundtrip ticket for 3 days in Phuket, Thailand.

There, I did nothing but eat, sleep, massage, drink, eat, sleep. I brought my camera but I took only 4 pics (all of them rejects when i opened them in my PC). Did not do any of the touristy stuff (except if you consider the massage as one). Just did some soul-searching and I think I did find it. Met few solitary souls along the way, but that would be another story altogether.

I don't know if this is even worth writing, but I think it was a monumental step for me. I called my ex-hunny the moment I came back from Thailand and asked her that we have a talk. And so we did. It was a very emotional moment for both of us but we were able to clear things up. Ang hirap pala ng ganun, we confessed that we still love each other but we decided that it is best for both of us to just be apart. But at least now, we can now clearly draw the line and stand where we both should be standing. No more gray areas. It's clear as the yellow lines in the smoking area, or the red lines in the bus lanes. I'm on this side, she's on the other side.

That's a closure, and now we can both move on.

I feel great now, and lousy at the same time.

Sigh....



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No day but today! - from Rent

Quick Update

As promised to my friend Nina, I am posting a quick update here on my blog.... Though there's really nothing much happening on my life now. As in very uneventful! ....sigh.....

Travel - not so much travel on the past few months, excepting 2 trips to Sydney, flights back home for Christmas and for Easter

Photography - did on-location shoots at the Bird Park, Singapore Zoo, Chinatown, Wolfgang Concert at the Esplanade

Badminton - been very slack in this area as well. For the past 4 months, only played twice. Bad!

Lovelife - after the last relationship, wala pa rin bago! Not that I am actively looking for a partner now. I still believe that she will arrive in my life in God's time. But I am praying to have one soon! Hehehe!

Sexlife - a completely different story. Need I say more?

Work - nothing changed, except on the daunting uncertainties brought about by the 2009 Economic crisis. Sana di ako makasama sa Recession statistics.

Ayan, more next time.

Have a nice day everyone....

Oh, by the way, I am hooked in Facebook. Hahaha! That's the major update in my life! Yo!


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No day but today! - from Rent

"Pamasko" - A Free Concert At The Esplanade

Celebrate the holiday season at The Esplanade with a feast of events from Christmas carolling to music performances by some of your favourite local artists and ensembles. And don’t forget to pen a wish on the wishing charms!

Featuring Filipino Artists Babes Conde (composer, arranger, singer and vocal coach of the stars), Robert Sunga (of TV's "Live the Dream" fame) and the PsalmiDeo Chorale (an all-Filipino choir composed of young and talented professionals based in Singapore)! Yes, that's the Choir I am part of here in Singapore.

Concert Segment: "Pamasko (Christmas Offering)"
Concert Dates: 13 & 14 December 2008
Concert Times: 19:30–20:15 20:45–21:30 22:00-22:45
Duration: 45 minutes per set*
Ticket Price: $0.00 (it's for FREE!)
Venue: Esplanade Open Ampitheatre

*13-Dec (Sat) has three sets and 14-Dec (Sun) has only 2 sets.

13 Dec 2008 (Saturday)
19:30 - 20:15 Performance 1
20:45 - 21:30 Performance 2
22:00 - 22:45 Performance 3

14 Dec 2008 (Sunday)
19:30 - 20:15 Performance 4
20:45 - 21:30 Performance 5

The Venue: Esplanade Open Ampitheatre

Here is the choir's repertoire for the concert:
(1.) Kumukutikutitap
(2.) Diwa ng Pasko
(3.) Minsan Lang Kitang Iibigin
(4.) Simbang Gabi
(5.) Christmas Praise
(6.) Anong Gagawin Mo Ngayong Pasko
(7.) Ikaw Lamang

I know this is not at the main Concert Hall or at the Sydney Opera House or at the Carnegie Hall, but I am nonetheless very excited and vexed at the same time. I can literally fell pins and needles on my legs. Break a leg!

Hope to see you all there!

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No day but today! - from Rent