Life in Seclusion
This blog has been in hibernation for such a long time. Every month since it was last updated, I always had something in mind to talk about. But the rebel in me tried to stop this "nonsense" thing I started prevailed, as if blogging was something bad. Of course not. So not! Anyway, it succeeded just that to stop me from updating this page.
Until something happened.
Since the start of this month, I have been hibernating at home because of this injury that I acquired while playing badminton. My left Achilles Tendon ruptured. It was nasty. It is nasty...still! It was like a bomb waiting to explode. I didn't even do anything acrobatic or gymnastic. It was just a simple stride reaching for the ball, and then I heard a loud popping sound! It felt like someone hit me hard from the back which pushed me to fall on the ground. I was able to stand afterwards, but my muscles can't make the foot move forward. There it goes, the tendon gave up on me.
23 days on, five visits to the hospital, three changes of the cast, one ankle support/brace, two MRI scans, one X-ray, three ortho surgeons - the prospects are not any better. I still can't step on the sore leg. The visit to the hospital today proved to be the most emotionally-draining of all. The MRI scan showed an "almost 100% fully ruptured" tendon. My leg is at a mercy of few hairline tendons that are hanging in there. Lifting the surgeon's words, "there is a 99% probability that you will need a surgery". I was devastated. I felt like I wanted to cry. First time during this whole ordeal.
So many things brewed in my mind. I might lose my job. I might not be able to sing in the concert (will write about this on another post - promise!). I miss my mom. I miss my walking days. I will need to cancel all holiday plans. I will incur additional costs. I might not still be able to walk when I go home for Christmas. I might lose my sanity. Bwahahaha! And so on.. and so forth...
I figured, this is a test of my spirit. I need to hang in there, just like the few strands of tendons/ligaments that is keeping my foot "still" attached to the rest of the leg. To the leg where it belongs...rightfully.....errr leftfully. Hahaha!
I have few days to think about before I finally meet a panel of surgeons to discuss my case and present to me my options. I need all the guidance that i can solicit. I hope I will make the right choice.
Help me O Lord!



